During nap time I have to decide between cleaning the apartment or myself, plan ahead for lunch/dinner or pack the diaper bag if I have dreams of leaving the apartment. I desperately try to fit in blogging, reading, my church calling, making doctor appointments, maintaining friendships, etc. At the end of most days, I feel like nothing "got done." Blah blah. Everyone's life has challenges.
But in moments of clarity, I realize none of that matters. I was looking through my iPhone (which yes, I am falling in love with) and found these pictures. Ready for those cliches? My babies are so beautiful they move me to tears. I look at Anton and feel like we've written a symphony. Professional cheerleaders have nothing on me when Stella tells me a train says, "Choo choo" or folds her arms to pray.
I finally get what Maurice Sendak was getting at, "Please don't go. I'll eat you up, I love you so."
I really could eat 'em up.
Stella pushes me to new limits Every. Single. Day. I call her my handful and half. But what comes with her energy and determination is the best sense of humor and intense affection. She is passionate and clever. She is a darling with Anton and now that he'll smile at her, forget it. I've been reminded by several wise people that these personality traits make successful adults.
And Anton. Sweet Anton. He is peaceful and happy. He smiles whenever his dad enters the room and is easily comforted. The gas that was burning our nostrils seems to be fading. He lets me know when he needs something, like "Um, are you going to put me down for a nap today?" but goes with the flow. The other day I found myself thinking if our next baby is like Anton, I could have it next April. (NO not an announcement).
Stay tuned. I'll try to out-do my cheesy level soon.